تو را می خواهم برای 50
سالگی
برای 60 سالگی
برای 70 سالگی
تو را می خواهم برای خانه
ای که در ان تنهاییم
تو را می خواهم برای چای
عصرانه
برای تلقنهایی که زنگ می
زنند و ما جواب نمی دهیم
تو را می خواهم برای تنهایی
تو را می خواهم برای وقتی
که باران است
برای قدم زدنهای اهسته دو
تایی
برای نیمکتهای پارکهای شهر
تو را می خواهم برای صبح
برای ظهر
برای شب
تو را می خواهم برای همه
عمر ...
Hard days will come—that is certain. Change brings pain, uncertainty, and moments of doubt. But no matter how difficult the road ahead, I will NOT lose myself.
I will NOT drown in sadness or fear. I will not let heartbreak define me. I will allow myself to feel, to grieve, but I will also remind myself: I am still here. I am still standing. I am still capable of healing and rebuilding.
Grief may visit, but it will not consume me.
Fear may whisper, but it will not control me.
Memories may flood in uninvited, but I will not live in the past.
I am more than who I was before. I am becoming stronger, wiser, and braver. A brighter future awaits me, and I will step into it—one day at a time.
Every hard day will pass. Old, bitter memories will fade, making space for new, beautiful ones. Peace will come. Healing will come. And soon, I will no longer measure my worth through someone else’s eyes.
This is NOT the end. This is just a transition. And beyond this pain, there is peace, hope, and a future waiting for me.
I will hold on to that.
I will keep moving forward.
The past is behind me,
the pain,
the mistakes,
the unanswered questions,
I have carried them long enough, but now
I choose to set them down.
Today, I close this chapter, not with regret, but with gratitude for the lessons that shaped me.
i am not looking back.
I am stepping forward - towards the life I have always deserved...
A fresh start , a new beginning,
and a future that truly is mine.
Here is to strength, to growth, and to finally choosing myself.
A Family Day to Remember
Today is Family Day, what a coincidence!!
After weeks of deep reflection, this morning, I finally made a life-changing decision —
a turning point for the sake of my emotional and mental well-being.
After 25 years ... !!
It wasn’t easy at all, but I know it’s the right step forward.
This Family Day will be one I’ll NEVER forget.
But more than anything, I hope that one day, I’ll have a family with whom I can truly cherish the meaning and beauty of togetherness.
...
The past couple of days have been unbearably painful and heartbreaking.
It feels like I was suddenly pushed off a cliff. I had sensed some signs that things weren’t quite right lately, but never to this extent. The pain is far deeper than I ever imagined - especially when it blindsides you.
After going this far, at this stage in life… it’s hard to process.
I wish I could go into hibernation for a whole year - just sleep through the storm and wake up when the dust has settled, when I’ve made it through the hardest chapter of my life, and when this unexpected trauma is finally behind me...
These days are hard, stretching long and cold, leaving me drained, hurt, and tired. They steal my energy, bruise my spirit, and leave me searching for warmth.
I crave the quiet—just a moment to be alone, far from whatever drain my strength, test my patience, and dim the light in me.
I dream of being surrounded by souls of depth and grace, with high standards and hearts full of kindness.
I feel adrift, lost in the storm of my struggles.
I need a pause, a reprieve—a breath of something good. I long for love, care, and the gentle spark of happiness to remind me that life still holds meaning waiting to be unfolded...
Bittersweet
There’s no other word for it.
After more than 20 years, this is where I’ve landed… A
place of disappointment, of solitude.
Yet here I am, holding on, not because it’s easy, but because I know I deserve more. I have to keep going, if only for the promise of my own happiness.
It’s one of those moments when I feel ‘I didn’t deserve this…’ filled to the
brim with love and care, but people... oh, people — they disappoint.
To soothe my heart, I searched through the past, hoping
to find even a sliver of comfort, a reminder that I was once loved. And then I
found it — your voice from last April…
God, how much I needed to hear those words again...
It’s been just three months, yet it feels like a lifetime—as if you were never truly a part of my world.
What surprises me most is how little I’ve missed you, especially compared to last year.
There’s been no overwhelming pain, no lingering sadness.
It’s been easier than I expected, and far less difficult than I imagined.
I’ve been immersed in my own life—caught up in material distractions, health challenges, and the everyday struggles of simply living.
In focusing on myself, I’ve realized how time has softened the edges of the past.
My life feels fuller now, though in a different way.
It’s strange how life moves forward, even when a chapter comes to an end.
Finally, it is over,
This time for good!.
Thanks to You for giving me all the reasons, so I could finally letting go of this whatever it was but LOVE!
I NEVER thought I might experience this much pain and regret with you!
and obviously, I NEVER knew you well enough to find out you didn't deserve it AT ALL!
THANK YOU for cutting all the bondings tonight!
Just get out of my heart and GO TO HELL!
I don't need your love, caring and respect!
YES, I am angry and disappointed as you gave me all the reasons to HATE YOU MOVING FORWARD coward!
Unknown!
P.S. Hey Beautiful, Next time you miss him or some of your memories about this relationship, come here and read this post and remind yourself what you have gone through tonight and all the reasons got you here!!!!!
